UGH THIS HAS TO STOP!

THIS NEEDS TO END LIKE, NOW! It's been 2 weeks and the only deceiving words that have gone through my mind are Jake, Jase, Dreams, and confusion. I have to go back to school tomorrow where I will have to face Jake and Jase. And of course, the dreams and confusion will follow in their path. It's just weird for me to think that neither of them know what goes through my head as I'm near them. They just stand completely clueless. When Jase and I were together, he told me I was the most different girl he had ever met. (In a good way). But what did he mean by different? I'm afraid that this is a question that will never be answered to me. No matter how desperately I need these answers. But there are so many other questions running through my head. So many that I'm not able to count. Like; If I end up going out with one of them, which one? This is the worst! They're my answers and I need them now!! UGH!!!! These unanswerable questions need to escape from my mind. But until I get the answers.... they're prisoners. =( =( =( =( =(