Wait...what?

Well, some of you may have heard...me and Jase kind of started communicating with each other. Long story short, he texts me saying happy valentines day and we started talking and we were actually getting along! But...now my happiness about it is kind of fading. It's probably because we don't talk in person. It's just not the same as it use to be. He was probably the most important person in my life and now I feel like I'll never have that ever again... because I feel like....well, I'm not really sure how to describe how I feel. I guess....I could say that I'm not really thrilled. I could say that I was expecting more than this. I could say that I wish that we were best friends like we used to be. I guess I could say I really hate myself because this is all my fault! And I could tell myself to stop sobbing and save my tears because I can never have this again! I mean... HE PROBABLY DOESN'T EVEN LIKE ME ANYMORE! WHAT AM I DOING? At first I thought he did. But he probably likes Jessi Blackburn like Jake said. And I'm just going to keep hurting myself like this. You know, he probably thinks I'm the worst possible person on the face of the earth right now. And it's my own fault. Not his. I'm putting myself through this pain because I keep believing that something can happen with us and that we can continue twhere we left off. But we can't. We can't...we can't.....ugh...we can't. It's all too good to be true. So what do I do now?