I've never wanted it this much before.

After a NKE (Near kiss experience) I've realized that I'm glad I didn't go through with it. Because now I realize that this person with the NKE with me was not the right one... I hope. Because while leaning in, pictures of Jase were spinning through my head. I thought I was over him. Its the right thing to get over him i just....can't. I've never wanted to be with someone this bad before. Never. Now that me and Jase are talking again, there's something missing from it. It's not the same as it was about exactly a year ago. He never says the sweet things he usuallly did.